What I've learned...and the week isn't even over

this started out as a comment to e's mama...but it's probably too long for that

I've learned that I really can't do anything for 30 days

wasn't that the tag line...we can do ANYTHING for 30 days?

okay...i take it back, I can be mindful and recognize what I can and cannot do

I've been mindful that I haven't always done what I set out to do

and I guess that's something

I've also realized that today, I wish I were where I was 6 months ago, and 6 months ago I wished I were where I was 6 months before that and I always wish I were where I was post ww...and when I was there, in every instance, I still wasn't happy with the shape I was in. (previous post validates that I am happy with the shape that I am...but not always the shape I am in)

So today...I realize that there is the REAL possibility that 6 months from now I will be longingly looking at the size I am now (the one I currently can stand).

So today, I appreciate where I am and somewhere inside I know that is a start

I'm sure I am not where I was because I never appreciated what I had accomplished

So today, I love where I am and honor where I am and focus on the shape that I am instead of the shape I am in.

I'm gonna go make some juice now

Then the day is packed with things that build up my daughter and light the mama spark in me

and I'm gonna wear my awesome gypsy skirt and a funky skater T and my fave chunky jewelry and be the bohemian-crunchy-skatepunk mom I know that I am...heck maybe I'll even throw in a little kitsch while I'm at it

Have a great day ladies!

(a...I always wish I had bought that awesomely cheesy christmas tree dress from that antique place in Austin...i SWEAR if I ever come across one again it's MINE and our family's christmas tree will forever be a kitschy mannequin!)